Sitting on the sofa, with my dog, playing video games...

There are a lot of times where I've just been sitting on the sofa...

With my dog...

Playing video games...

And this happens every so often...

Pretty often... -_- 

A long standoff with depression.

If you've been reading my last several post you might have noticed a common theme.

I've been fighting/struggling/dealing with depression.

I'm depressed.

Have been for about three years now.

 

Seriously Mr. Depress and I have been hanging out far too long.

A lot has happened over the passed three years.

I've had a few times where I thought I was on the rise and coming out of it, but things happened and I fell flat.

Life and the future just started to feel "bleh" and I basically became "bleh" with it.

It got deep. It got dark. I lost all feelings. I was ready to fade out.

Unfortunately I haven't though.*

*I still have some moments where I'd really rather not drag on any more. That makes it unfortunate.

I've started posting again because I thought it might help, even if no one is really reading any more.

And it has, at least I think. It's hard to tell, but at least I'm doing something. =\

Other than this and working around my home, I mostly just play video games lately...

After they stop working (distracting me from and/or masking/dulling my depression) I force myself to do something else.

Mostly writing, some artwork, or any other project I can fake up the motivation for.

Recently, it's been these post.

Also I get pretty hard on myself about it.

As well as anything else I can find to be critical about...

So that's just where I've been at currently.

Expect more post about depression, video games, and anything else I feel like. ._.

Another well known comic blogger person made some excellent post about depression which did make feel not quite as alone.
They can be read here: Adventures in Depression & Depression Part Two

In and out of it...

I've been out of it.

Well maybe a bit in it, but then mostly out of it. =\

Maybe these things just happen...

Maybe it's the winter, or maybe it's the age, but...

Still gonna try to do at least a post a week though, as well as put work in on some other projects.

At this time of year...

At about this time of year...

So this is the first post I've done in a long time and I'm sorry about that.

I'm also sorry that it's kind of a downer but this is just a frequent feeling I get during this time of the year.

I blame some of it on Daylights Savings Time...